I gave everything to us and u
Tired a rope around my heart and pulled as hard as I could until I ripped it clear out my chest
That was my first gift to you
To bad you only accepted the rope
Next I offered my smile to warm your cold embrace look at my smile the shield behind my empty chest
Where did us go
Lost forever like my heart
I gave you everything I knew how…hopes dreams aspirations my heart body if I didn’t give you what you deserved I didn’t know how to give that but time will tell it always tells
JM Love
"Love is, above all else, the gift of oneself."
Hey this is Jonelle and I'm Megan. We now know that a relationship built on real love feels good. It isn't selfish: it doesn't cause you anxiety. When someone really loves you, she understands that you're lovable just because you're here. How she treats you underscores that understanding.
Dear Jonell,
I really can’t find the words to start off these days are unspoken of to me the I that remains annomus is so quite it scares me walls close in my body feel shattered as I shake waiting within minds race with fear tears come sooner than before holding your hand waiting for something more. My how I replaced the fuck out of the one syllable word. Give me time apart. Before I remember the word we. Allow my brain to remain in vain. Can this heart of mine escape. The questions I Answer are you ok. Well no actually this life. This moment. This particular journey. Each day at a time is a battle. Listen. I wake up. My body wakes up from sleep. My heart never sleeps. My body attempts to pass a few kind words along to heart to cheer her up. But she pouts && says fuck off. Cool. Body sits there wondering what fuck todo. Then realizing body doesn’t give a fuck she admits I dont want you here either so you can just leave. Heart beats slowly. Then faster as anger rages flowing blood to every part of her body. It’s a blood war heart try’s to ripe every part of herself out of Megan’s chest.
Why are you here right now with me I can’t do this I want more than any to ask every question && get a straight answer but that seems hard to do… I love you more than anyone but we need to stop your not my type anymore I can’t say I will ever forget but I just dnt want what I can’t have because I really don’t want you. If I ask you to stay with me be honest with me open your heart dnd just give to me this love isnt faked…I forgot about what t takes to get there I can’t handle just this surface love this unwilling to sink deep within my soul love. Just be my inspiration…
"If you look closer you would see there’s something behind this friendship && what we tried to run away from is impossible to forget bc it’s within our smiles our hearts between our hugs under neath our sheets above our skin floating above all the mistakes we seem to hold on to but connecting our hands together is love real love real hard confusing indecisive complicated simple explosive LOVE && something that dynamic is hard to run away from since it can never de escaped.."
I should be doing many thing like moving on && living my life but I guess my heart is still living our life with out you…which isn’t reality at all but hey who ever lives in reality…look a you ask your self what’s really behind the wall you keep up…the truth…or a lie…
The truth that your heart is still loving me
Or the lie preventing your heart ever did love me
Which is but you say love isn’t enough but the truth behind my wall is love always has set me free && in the beginning it was all we need to just except who we are what we had where we need to be and how we really felt
When love becomes enough again && the wall is then gone ask your self was it see worth it
I think of you when I think I myself
Myself includeing everything
you
feel when your inlove
Who are you really
How do you define me
Where did the meaning of us pretend to be
What happened behind us defining you & me
&& me + you = we
So us must mean its our destiny
Finding the location of us is now simply
We must ask fate for our future
Why not look with ourselves together answering the question who we really are discovering the lies we manipulate to find our
As we should be together
But fate allows us to explore
But divinity allows me to change
But circumstances allowing your mind to rearrange
But fate can allow only divinitys to make circumstances to rearrange the thoughts of ourselves so our thoughts could never be allowed in our own control until trust is set up to
What’s really the difference. In a relationship you love && communicate…stay honested commit..be opened minded && trust you partner
BUT IN OUR “friendship” we have all if the above as well I guess I should stop complaining suck it up && except the friendship the only thing that’s different is the amazing sex…
Idk what it is but it’s BANGING
"i loved you. i loved us. i loved the idea of what we could have been. i loved our relationship. but in all actuality i’m tired of lying to you. starting now i’m gonna tell you the truth. You deserve that and plus I think i’m obligated to tell you. I tired of lying to you so please forgive for what I did before I even tell you the truth. I was bullshiting, starting at the first word. So really this is it. And I bet you wont read until another week from now but understand what I’m about to say. No matter how long time has pasted you better pick up the phone and call me after this……Jonelle I will always love you, as long as i live. I love us as a whole not because of how long much time has pasted during our relationship or who knows or what the world thinks.&& I love us, together, && I love our future. I love our relationship for what it is and not for what we pretended it to be, I just do. I don’t love the idea of what we could have been but I’m in-love with what we still are and the idea isn’t just an idea its our reality. Bottom line I just love you and I don’t know what else to be besides yours. Are you really done with fighting for us. Because I’ve been whole for a long time I just realized I’m not complete without you. I know at this point my words could mean nothing but honestly I don’t want to go another 24 hours without being with you."
